Trash a Decade

When it comes over me, I can hardly stop: sifting through papers and trashing everything thats no longer needed. This afternoon, an especially severe attack. I sifted through ca. 10 folders and trashed reports, ideas, memos, minutes of 10 years of conferences, discussions, consultations, conversations and all kinds of meetings. DAWN, Focusuisse, Round Tables, church planting, strategy. Woooooooow.

Remains:
- a very mixed feeling. How important all the strategic meetings were to me - and what more than a pile of waste paper remains? How many expectations, discussions, plans, ideas, manpower and money!
- sadness: how good colleagues I had worldwide - as long as funds were there.
- critical self-reflection: Would more prayer and less discussion have brought more concrete results? 
You become very humble here. Can only hope that God could use some of it.

Kind of clean slate this summer. What next is there in stock for me?

Comments

[Marc]

Glad you trashed DAWN finally. So let's pray then instead of having more 'strategy meetings'. ;-)

[Philipp]

..."Can only hope that God could use some of it."...
I am not sure that God is into resycling :-) Thanks for your honesty about this. Too many people are way to much attached to the past ad conserve everything thay can. Last summer when I visited Switzerland I went through our storage that was left behind when we went on the "mission field" I discovered my study materials from my theology studies and lots of other written materials from church. I guess similar to what you describe. I also had this mixed feeling throwing out part of my life with a tear in my eye. There were ots of memories going through my mind. on the other side it was very freeing to make space for what is to come.
May the best still come ;-)